first love

they say first loves hurt the most

and i did not believe them until you walked into my life

it was the first time i found home in a person's arms

i curled up like a child again

and i closed the door because i never wanted to leave

i would never imagined for this home to be temporary

i thought i could hold on to it

as long as i kept the door closed

but soon i learned that in a home that is crumbling down

you can never stay

i tried to pick up the pieces of what's left of our home

but you cannot rebuild something that only crumbles in your hands

they were merely remains of our home

and i realized they were better left untouched

even though it felt like the end of the world

when the roof of our home fell apart

i would not have it any other way

because when i learned that forever is a day that will never come

and always might turn out to be never

i also learned that it hurts hard because i love hard

and it is a beautiful thing to be able to do so

eventually i found the courage to open the door

i thought i would never step outside again

but i did and it was not as scary as i thought it would be

i wanted to leave the door open for you

but i looked back at what was once home

and i realized it was just another empty shell of a haunted house now

so i closed the door for the last time